You need to keep climbing the ladder of faith. I just wish there was an escape to all this. Guilt, fear & pain eat you up. It's not exciting, but you have to be ready. Life is the toughest battle. Lonely mess forever. Take a stand, hand in hand. Faith & hope. In Jesus Name. ALWAYS. The savior of the world.
"Lord, by your favor, you have made my mountain stand strong."
Psalms 31:6